Graduation

I have reached a…turning point? milestone? hurdle? I can’t seem to really settle on the appropriate word. I have reached a point in this pregnancy that I sometimes felt would never get here. Up until now, I have had an endless list of doom’s day deadlines. Dates and events that I was worried about making … Continue reading →

A Not-So-Quick Catch Up

Hello again. I’ve been gone awhile, I know. Well, not that long, in reality. It feels like a very long time in my blog world. I’ll start by saying that, as far as I know, everything is ok with our Little Monsters. I haven’t posted in a while because things have unbelievably hectic (as well … Continue reading →

The Good, The Bad, and the Scared Shitless

Well, it’s Thursday. RE Day. Ultrasound Day. I’ll start with the good. The baby on my left is looking really good. We saw a heartbeat, and it’s starting to look a little more defined than it was last week. Last week, it measured 6w3d, and today it measured 7w6d. I’m should be about 7w and … Continue reading →

He Says Everything’s Fine – Why Can’t I Believe Him?

Home from the appointment. I’m not seeing sparkly rainbows and butterflies like I was last week, though.  Dr. C. is a man of few words. He takes in the information, and he will answer you if you ask questions, but he’s not forthcoming with details unless you ask for them. I’m very into the details … Continue reading →

Civil War In My Head

Let me start by apologizing for being a lazy blogger over the past week. My internet was in an out and slow where I was for Thanksgiving, and I’ve been so TIRED these last couple of days. Things are going so well. I’m in a weird place for my personality. I’m such a pessimist, usually. … Continue reading →

100 Thanks (& update)

Today, I post my 100th post. I am in such a different place than I was when I began this blog in January. January Me was hopeless, desperate, and had no directions to find the path to a baby. I was not yet seeing an RE, despite being 2.5 years and one miscarriage into TTC, … Continue reading →

Am I? I’m Not. Am I? I’m not.

You know the depression commercial where the rain cloud follows the cartoon woman around everywhere she goes? I feel like that today, except my cloud is labeled Two Week Wait. Today, I’ve been slightly nauseous and my boobs have hurt a little. I also felt a bit crampy, but it was so faint that I … Continue reading →

Freaky Friday

So, I’ve been trying not to think about it a lot, but the next couple of months are going to be more difficult mentally for me than normal. We are approaching all of the painful anniversaries that now put a big black blotch on all of my silver, happy holiday feelings. Over the next two … Continue reading →

Trigger Happy

Well, apparently, Dr. C.’s office must have sensed my discontent on Thursday because they more than made up for it. (Well, not really. My results made up for it, but I’ll give them the credit and let them back in my good books. 🙂 ) There was still nothing much going on with my left … Continue reading →

S L O W . . . (And Lh is My Bitch!)

Slow. If Dr. C. says that word one more time to describe my follicle progress, I’m going to scream. Things are, indeed, moving very s l o w l y.  I went in for more monitoring on Thursday (CD9) and again today (CD13). I swear, they should add my name to the sign. You know, … Continue reading →